1 tutorial just ended & im alone in computer lab..
wanted to go elp but too many ple..fidah & shida in dere too..
life's so pathetic..
why is dere a need for this night class when this practices isnt used often in the clinical already?
intending to skip lab later..
i still need to prepare my script when i get home

im trying to save stuffs into my thumbdrive now..
as usual im a COMPUTER NOOB..hard to save lah..

i wanna play maple..oh..my itchy fingers again..
but it's only when i play maple then i will really focus on maple but not whatever past stuffs..

sigh..i do hope i'll talk to fidah & shida again..
hope they wun blame me..
guess it really time i try super hard to focus on my ICAs then to my studies before i get myself into any STRESS-RELATED MENTAL DISOREDERS..
will someone please talk me out of whatever that is interupting me from moving on?

do i look like a mother to a kid of 4 years?
someone just told me 'your son very cute hor?'
LOL lah..

anw..no classes for wednesday so i intended to look for job today..
i woke up before 9AM, & i just sat in front of the com till 6.30PM
mapling lah..FOR 9 HOURS! but i super noob lah..im at lvl 154 only..
planned to play for awhile & start to edit my pharmaco slides but i guess time just pass fast while one is gaming..

i did edit a little..hopefully it'll be alright..
hmmm..meeting tmr at 11AM,when we're gonna hav class until 8pm!!!
dont understand why we cant meet during the 2 hours break..
a couple more hours of sleep is much more better than skipping breaks for meeting isnt it?
well..i still hav to wake up early..
bet i'll sleep on the bus like a dead log..
den some kind soul will wake me up when the bus reach inter.
SO PAISEH LAH!!!

i wonder how am i going to spend my 7 hours in campus..
sigh.why am i doing this?
im so sorry fidah & shida..my sayangs..
im unclear of what im heading into now..
i need someone to talk to, to get my mind of him & the past
i seriously miss him but u both cant do anything to help..
dere's something tat i wan to tell u,
but im still uncertain & i cant bring myself to say it..
maybe..after a few months...u'll understand why..

anw..im currently still reading up on this book: [stress refief]
got to read more about it.to do edit my medical socio slides tmr..
indeed stress cant be avoided..but i guess my stress now cant be compared to the rest of NR0720 who hav more ICAs & exams than me..

no classes for tmr,so i'll be stoning at home
den meeetng yihan in the afternoon?
i wanna look for job tmr..

anw..life in campus sucks..
was early for bio lect today..
meeting was next..first time im early for meeting..
lab was super boring lah..haiis
went for 3 pm lect..
today..im so alone lah..haiis..

anw..im downloading maple now..
hopefully can play it tmr..

got to go slp for awhile..
im emotionally, mentally n physically drained

im currently reading a book for my ICA
[a guide to stress relief]
it's to show you simple ways to make our body relax.
my kind of stress consist of all 3 types -.-
behavioural, Emotional, Physical
but i tink..still really is inevitable lah..

im learning the breathing techniques, maybe it can help me clear my mind
but all like kind of rubbish la..
or should i say all are common sense?

on msn with boon wai now
he n crystal damn funny lah..
he's planning to bring her to mount faber for dinner onher birthday
BUT SHE KNOWS OF HIS PLAN ALREADY..
cos..she's planning to bring him dere on his birthday too..
so sweet of both of them lah..ENVY SIA...lol
apparantly the girl knows all the romantic places in sg
she's bringing him to 'The Jewel Box' whereas he's bringing her to 'Sjy Dining"

dont bother bout them le..got to take a rest

alright.today din go that well for me
bio lect early morning,till 10am
whilst waiting for 4pm to arrive, i was super bored la..after fidah n shida went for their meeting,i went to look for boon wai,used com in his lab
watched he n his friend did their work.SUPER HARD LAH..
i totally dont understand athing bout what he does
anw..studied a little for pharmaco..
im kinda pissed off by something lah..
but weijie was pissed off by me too..SORRY...
went for pharmaco, realised i really have to study more.
i only know about half of what the lecturer was saying..

im bored.waited for bus 72.ALOT of people lah..i had to wait for the 3rd bus..
im sick of studying already lah..
it's like things aint going well for me since...someday..

bio lect at 10 tmr,
meeting at 12,
lab at 1,
meeting at 4pm.
lives so bored lah..

cant play maple already
something awefully wrong with their system sia..
got to try to slp early tonight.
insonmia gets into me..

WTF! I FEEL LIKE KILLING SOME CATS NOW!
These cats always MEOW so loudly inthe middle of the night,
causing disturbance to ME!
I'm suffering from insomnia already,PLEASE!
cant anyone stop those cats from MEOW-ING?
it sounds so scary la.esp if i'm slping alone in the room
wild thoughts will conquer my mind,sending shiver down my spine
EYER! i dread to think of those things..
furthermore,7th month is here..
cant do anymore bad stuffs, cant stay out late, cant this cant that..
okok..i'm super afraid of those dirty stuffs alright
i hate to see mirror at night esp after midnight
super sensitive to things at night etc..

xh say the previous private server can play le!
damn the idiot ho hacked into it.
but tat server super lag la..
wanna play the other one sis dl-ed..less lag..

on msn chatting with fidah & ws now..
dont bother to wait for the dl alrdy.NIGHTS!

i'm super bored now
msging ws, reading ple's blog, doing all sorts of rubbish except focusing on my medical socio ICA & my pharmacology.
what a hopeless i am right?
cant help it.i'm a last minute person.but i'm trying to change ya

hmmm..i kinda miss someone now..
been trying not to but..cant help it..
the image of us just slide into my mind again
STOP IT, WENDY!
i dont know how am i going to live my life without thinking.
OH FUCK! sometimes i really hate talking to myself..
i think STRESS-RELATED MENTAL ILLNESS suits me now

new week tmr.I WANNA GO PIERCE MY EAR AGAIN!!
maybe..tmr during tat 6 hour break i can go northpoint to pierce
or maybe after my lect at 5,den can take 39 home..
i'll decide tmr..
i'm gonna make myself tired now before i'm off to bed
((:

went for CLIMB & RAN on sat
me & shida was half walking half running, walking most of the time la
who cares,as long as we complete the race
but seriously i need to train my stamina already lah..
6 of us ran..

wendy;syahidah;sian muang


sze huey;su hua;lai ying


wendy & ah sian

Oh ya..while shida && me were reaching the finishing point,
we had to go past a big group of guys from dragonballs,erm.i mean dragonboat..
i keep calling them dragonballs.LOL
i mean the group of GUYS were cheering us on
but it's so PAISEH can..

anw.we collected our goodie bags,rested awhile & proceeded to lunch at mac
me & shida intended to study but i guess the lazy worms in us kicked in,so we went home without studying..

sunday was boring as usual
mummy & i din go for vulunteer at IMH
guess we really hav to go next month but next month i'll be having my attachment already..hmmm..see first lah..hahas
so today we went aunt's hse.
as usual,i bullied my cousin & kena labelled by someone as "bullier"
i sat around, listen to stories by my aunts..
one of my older cousin is really getting a divorce
the husband is consider rich ba..but men who cant take care of his wife?
anw..another cousin showed us her 'wedding photo'
she & her partner look so sweet tgt(: ENVY SIA..
another cousin is leaving for australia-sydney soon
visiting her bf dere..

how come ple can stay so long tgt even when they are miles apart?
then still so loving?
maybe is their way of thinking & TRUST.
thats why,ALWAYS CHERISH A RELATIONSHIP.
tats wad i'm gonna do in my next.hahas(:

exams are really approaching fast..
i shan't waste anymore of my time,got to start studying already
i'll try to expel those lazy worms in me first.
class starts at 9 tmr,lect for an hour den break till 4 for another 1 hour lect
bet dere's meeting tmr too
aint my life boring?

1730 already
im at kavita's hse now listening to kavita's mother talking about some MLM stuffs.
come on la.it's the same as ve yet faridah & syahidah are so so so impressed about wad they are listening.
stupid can.
they heard bout the bracelet which cost $290 ( more ex than ve) & they want to join!
like so easy to find ple buy like tat..den u buy alrdy u ask ple to buy den u can earn back ur $290 & more -.-
i was telling zhenting on msn bout it.like so dulan la.last time told them bout ve they also like dun care like tat.WHATEVER LAH.

i'm going home soon.dunno meeting yihan later not.most probably wun be meeting la.my 'see first' become 'not meeting' to him..

i'm super tired.gonna take 39 home later.SIAN!

OH,it's 25th today!

i've been thinking much this whole week.
got to read more about my ICA ( stress-related mental illness)
been wondering why recently people are talking about breakups
maybe those once-couples dont understand each other & themselves.
breakups are one of the causes of stress? or vice versa?
individuals cant manage the stress well tats why it leds to breakup
but if u tink in a positive way, a breakup can be a blessing in disguse
heaven is sending u a better guy etc..
heartache or whatsoever is inevitable, but it'll be over sooner or later, i think.

ANYWAY.lesson finished at 1pm today
im at mac with fidah & shida.super boring lah
the rain makes my mood even worse..
Oh well.wanted to meet yihan at tamp later for the sake of his lappy,for me to study.
but now..kinda lazy to meet him cos he end at 3+!!!

i'm coming campus tmr at 8am for the climb & run event!
i'm lazy to come so early la.but i'm gonna lose weight!
syahidah taught me somethings bout weight
will talk about when i'm free
i'm going to visit kavitha now! LOL

I love this lyrics of this song by Fish Leong.

不是我不明白
这样并不算太坏
懂得爱说来无奈
来自对你亏待
美可以掩埋
没对他坦白
你还在

会进来吗
你在送我回家我还在猜测
那都是真的吗
再见面前
一直想象还有某种关联
但客气是拒绝
新的朋友
不在终点
你的世界
我在对岸
不是我不明白
这样并不算太坏
能再次关怀
时间洗刷所有的不愉快
后来的爱
我们尝试去款待
懂得爱说来无奈
来自对你亏待
美可以掩埋
没对他坦白
你还在

没说分手
终于是能开玩笑的朋友
不是不难过
多少年了
我想过能和你一起老的
却都有别人了
新的朋友
不在终点
你的世界
我在对岸
不是我不明白
有些我没说出来
能再次关怀
时间洗刷所有的不愉快
后来的爱
我们尝试去款待
懂得爱说来无奈
来自对你亏待
美可以掩埋
没对他坦白
你还在
不是我不明白
说被爱并不应该
我们的关怀
像爱但又说不上爱
没有后来
我们才学会爱
但现在说来感慨
不是那个未来
我们说好的
不会更改的你会在

I'M BACK TO BLOGGING AGAIN!!

okay.i'm back to campus after being in clinical for 4 weeks!
seriously life in KKH was pretty much alright except for PAEDS.
i'm not going to say much bout posting since i'm free from KKH.

Well..it's thursday already.ICAs coming up in next 2 wks.i only hav 2 so it's gonna be much relaxing for me which i doubt so lah.but for my other groupmates who are having 5 ICAs..hope they aint tat stressed. Bear for another few wks till exams are over!

hmmm..easier said than done..

i'm only having 2 hours skills lab tmr.but it's from 6-8pm!!
meeting faridah at 1430 in campus to study medical-socio
what a module to study..when both of us dont even understand what it's about.
BUT..exams are here..hope we really can study this module..

tis sat a few of us in NR 0720 will be running..in campus?
super long nvr run already.3.5km + climbing of stairs?
i think i'll need an oxygen mask after the run.LOL

gonna try to play maple.
sis just downloaded another private server
& i'm level 71 in just 1 hour!!

(: