Becca's bdae celebration ytd..
met mandy at tm, bought becca's present
was tempted to buy some for myself..
shall save up to buy :P
met the rest at pasir ris park..
hmmmm..stayed dere till bout 12am, bused back with mandy

Few more hours he'll be back fron malaysia!!
been waiting for his calls these 2 nights..
dont think can meet him today..
so cant wait to talk to him tonight!!
he'll be sending me to work tmr!! (:

watching my show on some taiwan site
its not out on PPS!
see baby, PPS is NOT GOOD ENOUGH!! haha :P
i noe u dont watch those shows, but i really want u to watch it..
MONEY IS NOT EVERYTHING OK BABY?!

anyways, work tmr! 4 more days in IMH!
time please go go go! i wanna finish this posting soon!
& seriously.CANT TIME PAST ANY FASTER?!?!
babay, will time really fly when im with you?
i really want it to go faster!

i have yet to find a job, soon i'll get one!
wahaha..

finally it's weekend!!
i feel tat im going crazy after 5 days in IMH!
KENA BURN!! KENA 'SORT'!!
sing~ sing~ sing~ sing~
soon i'll be in IMH with them!!

yes i rested the whole day today(saturday)!
my stomach not feeling well anyway..
was so reluctant to get out of my bed
am so hungry but din eat much the whole day too

tmr going for becca's bbq @ pasir ris park
gonna buy her present in the afternoon..
den den..also dunno wad time to go dere..
oh.her father ordered chocolate banana cake for her i think.
LOL.he ordered from IMH..

he left for malaysia this afternoon..
though we never met up on weekends, i still miss him lot la..
cos he cant msg me..!!
waited for him to go online, which he say he will
heng he called to say there's no internet connection
IF he never een bother to call.....TMD...i will kill him when he come back!
& yes, i will ttm..
he's cousin bugging him to play with him..HAHAS!!
now u noe how i feel when my brother bugs me
so come & play with my brother more often!

monday he's coming back but i cant meet him!
so monday im stoning at home?
den..he's fetching me to work on tues!!!

baby come back fast!
i dont want to keep hugging piggy only..
i wanna hug u, big piggy!!
wahaha..piggy also dont wan me to keep hugging him

waiting for him to call again (:

what makes someone have mental illneses?
are their brain functioning normally, or not?
do they know that there are people caring for them?
what would you think if you see them outside, screaming, talking to themselves?
they must be out of their mind right?
i think they are cute & clever.
cute when they look so innocent & playful
clever cos they can cheat other people.
i mean people wont know how they are really feeling at that point of time.
i would like to be crazy one day.
this way i dont have to always escape from reality?
'i die already' - my patient says
do they really think that that they are dead?
or they really want so much to be dead, so they 'lied' to themselves?

basically, it's really challenging to communicate with them
yet there's this kind of sweet feeling i have whenever i see them smile

he came, wanting to acc me home
i...din talk to him much..
was walking with my friend,
ignoring him..
SORRY!! Shouldnt have left you alone.
you had to leave earlier, cos you din want to stay for dinner
haiis..i know you feel paiseh to stay..
i wont ever ask you to stay for dinner ever again.
honestly i feel so weird..
we're totally mismatched
yet i expect alot from you, from this relationship..
i'm just your girlfriend..
but i've not done much as a girlfriend..
so i cant expect much..
you have your own considerations & all..
so i guess..it's really time i put those dreams behind?

morning shift at 7am tmr..
my eyes are freaking pain, BURNING! TEARING!!~!@#$%^&*()
it's so bored at IMH
talking & talking & talking to the patients..
I WANT TO DO SKILLS!!!
too bad la..stupid posting..
luckily it's ONLY 2 weeks?!

SLEEP! SLEEP!! SLEEP!!!
dont you dare say i'm a fucking lazy pig!
i need EXTRA SLEEP, if not i'll really DIE!!!

OMG! 2241pm already
& i intended to go lala land at 2230pm.
yea im busy playing facebook & watching tv..
& waiting for someone to call..

im so nervous!!
im going to IMH tmr!!
fidah says we'll be entertaining the patients..
i haven read the lect notes yet
what if i say the wrong thing & the patient go crazy?!
mummy driving me dere tmr..just to show me where to alight when i go dere myself on tues..
wun be updating my blog or coming online so often..
i'll be sleeping like a pig each time i retun home..

he's angry with me now i think..
cos i din wan to meet him tmr after my shift..haiis..
3 weeks of not meeting each other? hmmm...
den wun i die when u enter army?
anw..we wun stay tgt till tat time right?

lots of stuffs in my mind..
u wun understand anyway..

sleep now wendy,
u got to wake up early,
dun bother waiting for him to call,
he wun call..

1 more day i'll be going for attachment!!
im so nervous!!
yea im going IMH.FINALLY!
fidah done with hers.she say it's not too bad..
hmmm..who knows..i might join them in dere :P

busy watching PPStream.had watched some cartoons with my brother, some horror shows..
later on going fetch daddy from his mahjong session, den heading to Jalan Kayu for supper
daddy's craving for Kembing soup!
OMG! I'll be tempted to eat alot..
& i'll be so so so fat!
been eating & eating & eating non stop this few days..
i might try starving next week during attachment..
but..im a pig!! LOL..so i'll be FAT!!

i wanna go shopping!
dresses, clothes, shoes, bags, food....
first of all..i need a job first!!!!
next week im going to find a wkend job....!!
den after attachment can meet up with fidah & go shopping!
i miss u so much fidah!
meet u soon..

busy watching PPStream..
busy ttm-ing..
dunno why keep viewing his ex's FB..
why 分手?
do i have faith in him? hmmm...
i totally have no faith in myself....
想太多 ba...hope so ba..
想太多.. 心会哭
haiis..对不起...

hunger came for me again..
look for food!!!

early morning went polyclinic with mummy to book her appointment
tagged along as i wanted to ask about something..
mummy last min din wan to do so acc-ed me wait for my turn to see doc
waited for super long, & the airon is so freaking cold..
i think the doc's new there, i had to walk here & there to get my things done..
went to the rm, the person there say i have to go another rm
went to get my file from the doc again den entered the rm..
the SN told me bout the Hep A & B test blah blah blah..
den went to the lab to have my blood taken
the person poke me, cant get my blood & wanted to reinsert!!
kns..
had to go back for xray at 2 ,but i too tired to go back
going back tmr..
waiting for sis to get ready before we leave to meet mummy for dinner
having sushi!!! LOL..
lazy to blag much..
sheree has been spamming my phone & i have to go fetch yang!!
oh.& she bought her new phone.
& i wanted tat phone.hunph.so jealous..
have to go down le

To Baby,
we've been through ups & downs
i dont want to quarrel with you ever again
today is our 100th day..
we'll reach our 1000th day soon
& Baby u know u're as important to me as i am to u

watching 福气又安康..
dn want to go back to sleep
waiting for him to reach my place
but..haiis...
i just wanna go back to sleep now..
physically tired..
woke up early in the morning..
meet xh at DTE, he acc-ed me buy tickets to G-Force
& he & sis gonna watch District 9 later on at 7pm

my last post was a little too much..
i'm sorry..i'm sorry i quarreled with you last night
sorry that i was being a little uncontrolled..
i just want to have a simple relationship..
cant we just have one?

Happiness - does it even exist?

damn pissed with something currently
ya i'm at fault too
shouldnt drink even a single drop of alcohol
shouldnt always tell u when i already did something
shouldnt stayed out so late
shouldnt even have gone out with my friends in the first place
why not i just drop my phone off my window?

FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING ANNOYED!!
yea i should have been more understanding
& all that stuffs..
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busy on the phone now.....



i'm really emotionally tired...
i noe u seen this on my msn
i dun wan to hide my feelings now..
i noe u're tired of handling my rubbish all these while..

just let me go, will you?