how long have i not blogged?!
cant really rmb wad i did this week anyway..
had my pract on wed.it was raining & we had to be out in the rain!
hmmmm.met francis for dinner.had Hans River's buffet.LOL
eh..other than tat, i've been slacking at home, playing maple & stoning...

today is my father's sister's husband's sister's wedding
why do i have to go.so out of place lah..
furthermore, we're not even close to the bride & groom..
hav to crack my brain for my attire later..
wad a waste of brain cell..

working tmr! get it over & done with this week!
it's girl's wedding next friday!!!

Random pic :P

Girl's wedding is just 1 week away
i should be feeling happy for her..
but i just cant do so..i dunno why..

is there a place where i can go to?
i wanna leave this place..
seems tat people are not happy tat im here...
or maybe i should just leave here for good?

a friend of mine called me early sat morning.bout 2am..
it's been so long since we contacted each other..
talked bout the past..all the dumb things we did
& i realised how stupid i was last time :P

OMG..im so gonna die already...........
work was pretty alright ytd cos dere's this new guy to do the water & stuufs..
but my neck is so gonna break lah..i tink i sprained it -.-
yupps.angie asked my to wait for her for a drink..
but due to some reasons..i only waited fot 40 mins, & left..
stoned when i reach my bustop...ask BC out to acc me..
yupps.i was super hungry lah.but just cant finish my plate of mee..

meeting girl on tues at becca hse to discuss bout her wedding stuffs
hopefully girl wil have eerything properly planned out..
CANT WAIT FOR HER WEDDING!!
I JEALOUS SIA GIRL, I ALSO WAN JIE HUN!!! :P

den on wed im going for my prac again, which we didnt finish last fri..
wad a waste of money..have to go for the same pract twice..
but..i wonder how am i going to pass it.. =X

woke up SUPER early today.at bout 7am.is it SUPER early? for me, YES lah..
met rudi at his hse bus stop..waited for him bloody long..
we walked to simei mrt station, trained to Eunos den changed bus to our destination
blah blah blah blah..
& yupps! today was tiring, but FUN!!
only 5 girls were dere so we did our stuff while rudi waited for me UNDER THE SHADE!
hmmm..he waited for bout 3 hours for me?!
PHEW, i was so so so dead tired & thirsty..have to thank him for buying me tat can of suger cane.
it was disgusting but i really needed it to quench my thirst!
so we bused to bedok inter, & parted dere..
met mummy & the rest at tamp for lunch..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!
yupps.it's beloved Terry's bdae today!!
ate at a sushi place, i forgot the english name
but i seriously love the food lah!
i love the decor & everything, wanna go with my bf.(got 1 den say)LOL
anw..yupps..we went home with our bloated stomach for a nap..
by 5pm we're on the way to ECP to cycle!!
rented bike, really cycled a long long way..
damn tiring can..
blah blah blah blah..
our 'exercise' was wasted when we opted KFC for dinner
mummy bought 5 meals!! & we really had to 'dump' everything into our stomach..
(i confess lah..im the 1 who dunmp the leftovers into my stomach =X)

visited grandma in SGH..
she still couldnt eat or drink
sigh.i really pity her.
once energetic & eerything also can do..
now, she cant even walk by herself..cant do anything much alone..
her CA cells have been dere for so long..
i guess, we have to be prepared.........

tats just life
how i wish could have no regrets in my life
but.it's impossible now right?

cant wait for my 1st prac tmr(:
hopefully i can pass..hees!!!

alrights, it's the end of exams..
so met up with fidah at woodlands..
we were flipping through the classified ad at civic plaza's mac..
&&..we saw this grp of underage( lower secondary to be precise) smoking..
how stupid can they be..smoking in their uniform?! somemore still in shorts?!
wonder why they wanna smoke at this age..or they just wanna look cool?
-.- yeah it's stupid to smoke..

hmmm..fidah meeting shida too, so waited for shida..
den they went for their lunch at banquet..
walk walk ard after tat..
did feel weird lah..haiis..
again..wondering why we've become like this..
anw.yupps.fidah received a late vdae gift! A BLUE ROSE! from wendy((:
here's fidah with her rose (:

im so addicted to audition nowadays, since ive finished my papers
hmmms.. but maybe i should really start studying for my supp papers..
im meeting fidah tmr, acc her look for job?
hopefully i get a job too..
but im like so broke now lha..haiis..

i need cash now! i need $50!!
sigh..after sunday, i'll be rich by $100!!
but after this week, i'll be so busy to work..
wedding dinner on 28th feb (sat)
girl's KKH appointment on 5th, wedding on 6th, wedding buffet on 15th march..
ohoh..& hopefuly they'll let me off on 8th march too
BUT I NEED CASH!!!
So little days to work..
dun really like working dere but no choice..or..
can someone assist me in robbing a bank?! LOL

currently listening to Low by Flo Rida

bio paper was an ass..
& i swear i totally gave up, wanted to leave at 10am?
i admit i wasnt in my right mind to give up on the SAQ,
discuss the structure of a bacteria..blah blah blah..
it's just so pressurising, when im sitting beside 2 'good students', watching them starting to pen their 1st SAQ answers on the second page..
plus, my mind just shut down, i so wanna sleep!!

well.exams over, just prepare for the supp paper..

fidah wants to find job, FIND ONE FIDAH!!!
i wanna change job too, i noe i cant now, but I WANT!!!
just hope that the few days im working in ccc, the bosses would be alright..
& tat..i just hope they'll stop saying bout me & ______....
AH!!! luckily im having 'attachment', so i dun hav to work too many days?

got to replenish my sleep asap..
thanks rudi for accompanying me today((:

just a quick post for today
yes i noe ive not been blogging for like ages?
im not free alright, i mean not really free, or rather i just dunno wad to post
so many things happened, so..cant be bothered to blog all..

oh, im supposed to be studying NOW, for my biopaper later on..
it's like almost 7 plus more hours to my exams
i'e been out today, meeting sid for movie(im in the mood for movie..LOL)
watching tv in the evening & stuffs..
& I'VE NOT FINISH STUDYING!!!
im prepared to burn the midnight oil, having drank 5 cups of COFFEE!!!

i just cant get anything into my pea brain!!!

OMG i've created a sin!!
alrights i have to confess that i've been using com for coming to 4 hours!
& yes it's a SIN!! Cos im supposed to be studying!

I give up, im not going to study anymore..
mentally exhuasted~

just barely 5 hours of sleep & im awake..
yes im supposed to be studying for my upcoming exams
but i've been in my roon fro 10 plus till...2.30?
& i wonder what have i got into my head..
im so not in the mood of studying..
i've been drinking like 4 cups of coffee since ytd night?
anyone can intro me any better beverage that keep me awake?

gonna play suduku on facebook now

We cant change the PAST, but we can ruin our PRESENT by worrying over the FUTURE

maybe i've been thinking too much into my future, that i've missed out alot in the past, & who knows my present..

alrights, so i went to sch for pharmacology lect today..
yupps, i had an urge to leave the LT, i felt so leftout
i seriously dont understand why things have become this way between us
at least let me know what i've done wrong
did i even do anything to you? any thing that is worse that what that bastard did to you? Or you're just a slut who prefers THAT to friends?

What on earth is wrong with all that i met
or that im just a freaking irritating asshole who doesnt even deserve to be existant?
this group, these so-called-friends, these so-called-sisters, so-called-whatever human beings..
how long more do i have to take all these things from all of you?
how long more do i have to take to get these loads off me?

TAKE IT EASY WENDY!!!

i shall not continue my rubbish here, i've got no time to waste anymore..
im only 5& into my AN, & less than 5% into my pharmacology..
sigh..i really have no more brain space to digest those info..

it's wed tmr..im going to cycle to pasir ris park in the afternoon to relax ((:

wanted to catch a movie tonight but i forgot that im having dinner with my fanily..
so cancelled my so-called-date tonight.
went expo after studying in sch with fidah..
had our dinner, & surprisingly, mummy allow me to drink tiger & i drank quite alot..
yummy! sigh..how i wish i can be drunk every single day
so at least i wun be thinking of those stuffs..
here are some of the pics, the rest is in my facebook acc((:











yupps, view my facebook if u wanna see more((:
hmmms..going sch again tmr for pharmacology lect..!!
it's gonna be V-day soon
& i'll be alone again this year..
so i'll be stoning at home this sat..

sis's bf called my on sat, ask for my hse address
he planned to get sis a gift, but since he's in thailand now, so he shall send it through post!
& i noe what the gift is!!
how sweet of him right? envy only..
just wish sis will cherish him & they will not always quarrel with each other..

it's been a pretty bored day..
intended to study AN, but went to aunt's hse, slept dere till 7 plus..
im meeting fidah tmr, in sch
oh my god..i bet i'll have headache when i take 72 to sch..
but early morning i'll be accompanying grandma to SGH with sis
i so hate going dere, but i dun wan to be alone at home :X
yupps, so maybe straight after tat im meeting fidah..

angie's back from thailand
meeting her for a drink tmr? or maybe tues?
& both of us are broke now alrights..sighs..
gonna dig out my remaining ang pow money..

pathetic few hours of sleep only..

i wanna watch movie!!!
meeting someone to watch tmr?

working tmr at 7pm & IM STILL NOT ASLEEP!!
i have yet to finish my reflection!
sighs.im like so dunno wad to do lah..

meeting girl after work tmr at eastpoint..
i have lots to say, but, at the same time i dunno wad to say..
i just need someone to talk to lah..

got to finish up my reflection fast & sleep!

it's the last day of attachment, for the rest
not me, my last day is tmr, morning shift somemore..

it's tiring ya..but im glad it'll be over soon((:

went eastpoint with Hajar..
i finally deposit my cash & settle my bill..
just hope the next bil wil be lower..
i still hav to pay back sis..
alrights..we walked around, stayed at IP Zone for about an hour?
bought a jeans & a shirt..
the shirts are nice kies..

been feeling a little weird in my stomach since morning..
got to eat my medication, den sleep again..
morning shift tmr, luckily got Hwee Jin & the other good nurses((:

alright, sad to say tat my last day of attachment in on sat
& yes, im on MC today ):
im on AM shift today, but i was not feeling well, so i came home..
farking stomach..damn irritating, den plus my..u noe..the once a month thing..DAMN IT!
well, ive seen doc, & im on 3 medications..
reached home at 11plus, took my medications, & fell asleep until 5 plus..

mummy cooked curry thoday, too bad i cant eat much..
dun think i have the appetite to eat too..super sian

alrights..go to take my medication again..& sleep..zzz..

such draggy day.LOL
ms evelyn was afternoon shift so she assessed us till over 9pm!!
actually meeting cp after work de, but i guess i always let him wait so he gave up waiting for me today..SORRY..
sigh..i hav to settle my outstanding phone bill & get a prepaid card, study for my exam & really really find a focus in my life!
life's miserable isnt it? but we got to move on..

i promised girl tat i'll help her with her wedding album
just hope tat i'll do according to wad she wants..

top up? check in? book in? log in?
WHAT THE HELL!!!
sis was asking me bout my bill, i wanted to tell her tat i'm going to CASH IN the money tmr after work..

hmmm..i wanna watch movie, go drinking, &....
& yes, im free after 3pm on friday!!
mummy wanna pah mahjong on friday night..gonna lose money again..
so gonna study on my wkends..super siian..

i so wanna find job lah..
dunno when tat cheesecake open for business..den hopefully they wun ask me work..
even if work..as few days as possible can..hais..

BC!! where are u..LOL..super long nvr see u liao..
i wan my steamboat!! den we go drink drink, U DRIVE!!! :D

Super f**ked up today, wun be mentioning a single thing about it.
counting down, 3 more days to end of attachment..

i dun feel well since ytd..
being in the ward is really suffocating me!
im so not in the mood, yet Ms Evelyn (lecturer) is around so i hav to let her assess my skills..
i just dont know why im getting more & more moodless each day
something is just so missing in my life now..

oh..chatted with girl previously
she & her husband-to-be plans to intro his bro to me..
& girl wants to know the criteria to be my boy-to-be..LOL
so..here's what girl wants to know..
1. my sisters & (the gang) have to agree to this guy
2. he will have to click with them well (:
3. hmm..he have to be taller than me, but fat or thin doesnt matter
4. he must be same age or older (but not more than 4 years)
5. qualification doesnt matter, as long as he doesnt idle around doing nothing..
(so he must be serious in what he do :D)
6. erm..yupps..of cos he must be able to tahan me lah..
(but im ok to my boy de ok..only tat i always ttm..& ttf)
7. lastly, hmmmm..i think this, girl will know ba?

alrights..i know it's super lots of points, but..most importantly he must be well-liked by the gang..
yupps..i just dunno why i always think too much(ttm) & think too far(ttf) in a r/s..
wahaha..tats all for girl lah..

got to sleep already..afternoon shift tmr..& ms evelyn will be around..
it's good tat she'll be around to assess me, but she always nag at my learning guide!!

4 more days to end of attachment!!
& yes, im eager to finish off this attachment
my heart is so not into this posting..
just staring into spaces on & off..
& yes, im emo-ing, thinking lots & lots of stuffs..
even my back pain & the blue-black on my arm cant stop me from ttm-ing..
-.- yes i know im lame lah..

it's tuesday already..just hope today will be a better day..
gonna play sis's psp ((:

HAPPY NEW YEAR ONCE AGAIN!!!
yupps..been going round collecting red packets on mon & tues..
din really have much cos we only went to my mother's side..
as for my father's side..they are non-existant..
been playing blackjack & mahjong ((X

alrights..afternoon shift for 3 straight days..
pretty much to do cos ms evelyn was in the same shift!
so me & hajar had to hav our skills assessed by her..& those time were eaten into our break time! but overall, we really learnt alot from her.. :P

it'll be my last week of attachment soon!! Im so looking forward to it!!
hmmm..guess i'll hav to start looking for job already..

keke..talk so mcuh rubbish..
just got back from becca's hse.
girl, ray, reagan, ws & me actually watched "Love matters" in the afternoon..
after tat went ntuc, bought things to bring to becca's hse
bai nian-ed, watched IP Man, had steamboat, & played blackjack..sobs..lose $$$ again..
ohoh..becca's father open 2 bottles of red wine for us..thanks!!
anyway..we had fun..thx reagan for sending us back(:
will post the pics when becca upload it..

anyone know of any good sinseh? i wanna get a massage for my aching neck & shoulders...
hmmmm..im not the nurse material right?
firstly, i cant stand the sight of my patients(if they pass away, unfortunatly)
i can get very emo, (rubbish) thoughts will fill my mind..
secondly, im too gentle to my patients, i so afraid i'll break their bones..
but i see those ward nurses being rough..
thirdly, im petite? & i hav to really use strenght when i wan to shift my patients..
these add on to my already-aching-back..

but nevertheless, i stil wan to be a nurse..
i really wan to help them , to get discharged soon..
sigh..but will i be in the same scenario(s) as my patients?

LOL..really talking rubbish already..got to stop it before my neck start to break..
oh..suddenly i miss BC! HEY BC, when u free for stamboat?! bring ur gf along!

hmmm..ive got too many stuffs to think about now..
let's end this once & for all..
i really need to be alone..