first change for the new year!!
yes i'm awake at 7.30am today!! (for today only i think)
have not thought anything bout the resolution yet..
been thinking bout those stupid stuffs again..URGH!!!!
cant be bothered about anything already...hais..
hmmmm...
9 more hours & i'll be meeting him for desserts & dinner..
going clarke quay after that, probably going clubbing!!
hope today will be a better day..

1 more day to 2010..
honestly..2009 isnt a really good year for me
fell sick for more than 5 times this year..
i lost my phone..
i lost twice my ezlink card..
i lost my whole bag with IC..
been through lots of emotional problems..
blah blah blah...

the only guy whom i can really confide in is serving the country now..
but now..i dont think i really can confide in anyone anymore..
how can ple understand me when i dont even understand myself..
hmmmm....

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
last 2 days of 2009 & someone really wants me step into my grave!!!!
AH FUCK!!
seriously cant stand living under the same roof as her!
she used my stuffs, yet the way she say..it's like MY FAULT?!
WHAT THE FUCK?! TMD!!

yet to think bout my new year's resolution..
shall think bout it tonight..
got to really really 'jian tao' my temper!
haiis...

didnt spent my day well this few days
probably the worst days of the year..
din countdown with my love ones..
spent half of my christmas day at uncle's place
yan jie's finally married!! ((:
went to his fren's place at 7pm..
felt totally out of place, regretted going there..
&...my fault too lah...think too much..
i emo-ed..din go out with him....
asked bc out to pei me drink...
thanks bc, for pei-ing me & stopping me from drinking further (:

got to do my management slides already.damn it!
why am i the leader? -.-
i;m like a microsoft idiot lah!!
how to do those slides?!?!
hmmm...

i wanna watch movie!!!
had to get a new job soon..!!
get my darn bike lic!!!
i wonder if i can go for my bike pract...
i dont hav time!
exam's in february, attachment in march till august?
hopefully i can still go for my pract during the holidays..
sigh..2009 is indeed a bad year for me

i only have like less than 20 minutes to get everything done & get my butts out!
well i just got back from my uncle's place where there's a lunch buffet or something..
yea it's my cousin's wedding!!
finally she's off the shelves!!

christmas eve was boring!!
din had any countdown
din go anywhere near town due to massive human traffic jam
had steamboat dinner at aunt's place.was craving for the spicy steamboat..
went back tamp, went bc's mei house..
played game, drank tequila shots( i get to drink so little only) ):
played mahjong until bout 6am?
chatted with hin while he sent me back.THANKS!! ((:
slept for bout 2 hours only?

going meet Marcus later on, for his fren's bbq
sigh...
he;s going down clarke quay, damn packed..
plus my toes hurts from wearing those darn heels
& my forever aching shoulders

Merry Christmas?!
what's so merry about it?
1 of my worst christmas.

ten more minutes!!!
it's been lie the whole day lah!!
i guess i really really really dont suit office jobs
i dont mind sitting dere, picking up phone calls, enjoying the aircon & reading other humans blog..
that may suit me, in some way.
but i still prefer to earn my money the hard way..
i mean standing for 8 hours straight, serving nasty customers & stuffs..
thats more like me! :P
well..as i write..few more minutes have passed!!

hmmm..i wonder how am i going to get myself out of this buiding..

steamboat dinner tonight at aunt's place
i wanna go countdown!!
but too bad tmr morning is my cousin's BIG DAY, cant stay out too late
abo morning become zombie!
when wil it be my turn? ):
I'M FALLING ASLEEP!! :P

It's really a tough job!
i mean those humans calling in to ask for dozens of other humans to speak to
& i hav to look through hundreds of tiny names, locate & transfer the call to whosoever..
& some humans just dunno how to speak clearly that i had to ask them to repeat & repeat but yet i still cant get the name right!!
well..an hour more to go & i can go shopping!
it's freezing cold in here la.
me, sitting down waiting for calls
reading xiaxue's blog too!
wahaha..so envy her lah..:P
i had to call DHL to get them to collect some documents
no clear instructions of what to say, how to call..
i had to recall them after i get the destination of the bloody documents
cant they just come & collect?! ask when u're here!
freaking cold + shoulder ache = tmd~!@#$%^&*()

the humans here are good (:
say good morning to me when they dun even noe me?
still can joke when i cant find the bloody names?
one even offer me a cup of coffee when she see me shiver (:

oh..can i sign anything?! :P
i signed few but i dun hav to company's stamp! =X

being a receptionist really requires hard work
damn i had a hard time to keep myself awake!
it's been like only half an hour of 'work'?!
i got this one day PT job from michelle
just to sub someone who's on leave?
& guess what? the location is at SCIENCE PARK!!
daddy ask his cab fren to drive me down & i insist tat i pay him
the time i reached here? it's ONLY 7.50AM!!
it's really super boring, waiting for phone calls only
but HELLO!! it's considered PULIC HOLIDAY TODAY!!
who the hell would call?
as u can read, dere's internet assess here
but facebook & friendster's webpage is BLOCKED!!
must be the indian lady receptionist playing facebook games while working
any games i can play, other than my phone games?

went running with him, actually planned to go gym de
ran at yck stadium,damn long nvr run liao sia.
kns..stamina LIKE SHIT!
after that went amk shop for bag!!
finally got a big big bag! i wanna buy a smaller one next!
also bought mummy's & winnie's present!!
happy happy(:
shall go shop for daddy, yang & sheree's present after work!

hmmm..ytd night he say wan go see rings...
buy ring for? haiis....

ooh..an indian guy just sent the Straits Times up,
shall read it, blog again later! (:

blog hopping now(:

when was the last time i blogged?
been reading other human's blog & i find that my blog is indeed VERY longwinded
shall try to cut short eveything from now!

Well, shant mention anything bout the past
& yes, I'M HAVING MY TWO WEEKS BREAK NOW!!
will soon start on the outline of the module tat i'm in charge of
calling up the lecturer is really killing me!
'oh i'm having meeting'
'oh i wont be in school'
'oh i'm going off for my holiday already'
blah blah blah..
still, i believe i can get everything done before the break end

shall continue playing facebook games
yes, i'm too free to play games now!

oh! my pay will be banked in tmr, hopefully after 2pm.
shopping once i get my money, that wee little pay..!
bag!! when can i buy a bag which doesnt make me look auntie?!
HUMPH!!
cant i just have a makeover for the new year?
yah yah..i'm always very auntie! -.-

meeting Peace for lunch tmr..
& i shall waste my whole evening after tat..

really enjoyed my weekends.
although i still find weekends boring..
went powerhouse with BC & his friends, this time with sheree
thank god she can go in, abo waste my money :P
left at 5am? BC had to report for duty at 7am?
anyway we cabbed to the west, had breakfast..
den YQ drove us to Changi to watch aeroplane.LOL
too tired so only managed to catch one..
reach home at bout 9am..
slept till 3pm, went aunt's place, had steamboat dere!! ((:

last week & i'm gonna enjoy 2 weeks of holiday!!
but i still have loads to do in tat 2 weeks
study? not my type.i'm born to stay away from books
ICA? bo bian have to do.plus tat 1500 words essay ):
drug guide? been saying bout it for months! no hope..
preparation for PRCP? hmmm...wait til i've done the above 3,
then i'll start preparing :p

presentation tmr!! or rather later on.
i've yet to see my slides & all, how on earth am i going to present?!?!
weather freaking hot!
& i'm hungry again. i wan more steamboat!
msging BC & chatting with him on facebook wall now.
LOL.too bored already.acc him while he do his guard duty.

the weather is killing me!!
i wan to be botak! can i? can i? can i?!!!

had sch for 4 days this week.it's so tiring!!
used to those slack timetable already..
everyday go for classes, just to find myself falling asleep..
mr headache have been clinging on to me too..
maybe thanks to the long ride on bus 72
& thanks to those loud chatterboxes on the buses..
adding on to my headache...

tidied my table/room on thurs..
for once, i managed to have everything done in less thsn 1/2 day
but my poor table of several years have left me..
change it with sheree.she's using it with yang
till now i wonder why i change my dear table with the small one..
had a hard time sorting my stuffs, & throwing away lot of them..

stoning currently..
gonna watch the previously channel u's 10pm show
& facebook-ing..
BBQ later on in the evening!!
too bad cant go out with BC...
but thanks BC for having dinner with me yesterday!(:

i've stabbed myself hard...
but can words be taken back?
if it's really gone, thanks to my impulsive self.

planning a career path isnt easy
being a nurse for long term, doesnt help much too
how long will i work as a nurse in future?
thoughts like taking advance dip, looking after the old & haggard
stuffs like tat made me think "what do i really want in life?"
just by taking an advance dip, is it enough?
i'm no longer young.got to start planning!!

i collected my IC this morning!!
SUPER HAPPY!!
daddy tries to 'confiscate' it, but i got it back!
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!

watched Twilight with him..
not bad lah, but still i dont like tat kind of movie
waited for bus, met sheree at tamp inter
wanted to buy sports shoe, but none to my liking
in the end wasted our time eating at CS

things arent going as expected now

headache got into me again!
like wtf?!
been having headache since i woke up this morning(sunday)
maybe i slept too much?

i feel that i've changed
not as eager to meet u as before
yes it me.
i dont know exactly what i want in life
except to just settle down & stuffs.
i know that is not what u want.
why keep holding on when everything will still be back to square one
should i be the first to let go?

i'm collecting my IC later on today
daddy's driving mummy to harbourfront
driving me to ICA building after tat..
dere wil be lots of humans but who cares
I'm getting my IC!
class start at 12 pm so i wonder what am i supposed to do in the meantime
new module's tut start at 2pm, a little nap in between(:
hmmmm...should i start looking for a job?

i cant help but to admit im a pig!
a really very lazy big pig! born to be!
perhaps due to my lack of sleep this few days
had dinner with BC on fri.went out with friends after that till bout 5am?
used com for an hour before i bond with my bed
& slept all the way till 3pm!
yea my hungry-ness woke me up!
had my brunch, went back to bed, slept for another 3 hours this time.
time flies & *POOF*, my saturday was gone!
but i really enjoyed my fri-sat with friends(:
it's been so long since i've been there.thanks((:

it;s sunday now!
& im going to collect my IC tmr!!
cant wait cant wait!!
my last module finally coming next wk
means i have to go sch more often.bout 4 days now?
bout 2 more weeks & im having my holidays AGAIN!!
cant wait cant wait!!
i wonder when i getting my damned pay.
i still need to find a new job though..
my bike lic has been waiting for me like ages!
cant let it wait any longer :P

hmmmm...shant say much anymore
intimate session with my bad again!
oopppss..sound a little wrong..but WHO CARES!!

nothing in particular to post actually..
so i'll just be random..
had lect from 8-9am, stone in the library after fidah's breakfast
facebooked plus tried to do some research for alienation
severly under-rested ( erm, is there such word?)
well..i am SO TIRED tat i intended to just skip the group meeting @ 1pm
i did went for meeting, just to fall asleep for like 20 mins?!
just have zero idea about ALIENATION!
in the end everyone gave up doing research, & i played FB on Joyce's lappy (:
met the lecturer @ 4pm.she nag & nag & nag, regarding the attendance & whatever shit
today den i noe tat some of the rest are taking alot modules this sem
which means i'll be getting my transcript earlier than them!
but i'll still graduate @ 2011 -.- ~!@#$%^&*()_+

oh.The restaurant's secretary called,
i'll be getting my pay soon!
but my cheque has yet to be written
i wonder how long more...hmmmmm
i need money!!
to repay my debts :P
to buy stuffs for myself
& to continue my bike licence!!!
got to work again & save up much more!!!

he came over for dinner tonight
finally my lil brother get to play cards with him, plus me & sheree
if not everytime lil bro will be do disappointed ):

hmmmm..am i really that unfathomable?
or are u just acting as if u know nothing?
all i want is just so obvious?
u know u cant give me those,
so why cant u just let me go?

I'm back from Genting.
It's really SIAN to go dere with my father's sister & all.
but still, i had my fun at the theme park.
best is when i sat on those EXCITING RIDES!!!
things i hate most is the stupid small van, to seat 14 humans
& the hotel room which only has 1 king size bed.
thanks to my aunt who booked the rooms
luckily the bed can be separated into 2,if not i'll be cursing & swearing!
Oh.the journey back was TERRIBLE! HEADACHE which lasted throughout!!

class at 12 on monday.
played some dumb octopus game in the field
met him after that at 2pm
he brought me for lunch at New York New York
feel so bad using his money, though he spends it on me willingly.
6 months since we've been together
but u know what?
There is something that has been making me feel very uncomfortable.
& i honestly have no idea what exactly is it.
i have no faith in myself..& us...

met up with my long time 'girlfriend' - Guanwen
last min change the venue from town to pasir ris..
intended to watch Case 39 but tat cashier wanted to check our id
I LOST MY WALLET MY EZLINK CARD MY IC!!!
the GIRL said 'in that case we cannot refund u if u cant enter later'
WHAT THE FUCK!!
Do i really look that young?!
how ironical..i wasnt checked when i watched Ninja Assasin on monday
M18 show u know?! Instead i got checked for a NC 16 show!!
WTF!! WTF!! WTF!! WTF!!
settled for Christmas Carol.which was boring initially..
URGH! STupid GIRL!!