am i really going to stone at home for this 2 weeks holidays?
i wanna get a job so tat i can continue my bike lic
my fren already got his lic & getting his bike this wed!
meeting him next week & i can ride his bike!!! :P

exams finally over last friday.should i start studying for my supp?
i SERIOUSLY dont like to study.believe it or not.
i always feel so sleepy when i read those exam papers
maybe blame it on my poor english.
those eng words dislike me, wants me to slp so i'll fail my paper
well.for the Adult Nursing 3 paper last thurs, i had to crack my brain to get the answer

the question was something like this:
The sponges, guazes & instruments are counted by the nurses
a) at the beginning and at the end of the operation
b) at the beginning , during and at the end of the poeration
c) before, during and at the ending of the operation
d( before, during and at the end of the operation

hmmm..the answers sound quite similar right?
see no diff in them, i stoned at this question for like more than 5 mins?
proceeded to the other questions before i get the answer & handed up

hmmm..it's the end of yr3 sem1 already.
the whole of NR 0720 going for PRCP soon
well.guess the 3 of us wun get together already.no chance anymore right?
u wouldnt even give a damn about..
tell me what i did wrong at least..

that's life right?
friends come & go. What are true real friends?
ah..forget it.i guess we wasted 3 years..
well, enjoy your PRCP

I quit I quit I quit..but i aint giving you up......
yea listening to this song now
Im so gonna quit studying!!
No matter what, im just not cut out for studies
& i so dont suit u ):

Adult Nursing 4 & 5 down!!
IT'S A KILLER DAMN IT!
& i even studies & re-read AN 5, but F***!
Yeah, im gonna prepare for supp

AN 3 on thurs, Mental on fri!!
honestly specking, do i really have to study?!
I mean a just pass would be good FOR ME. but to someone...
aimming for As..why isnt he aimming for a better gf?

ANYONE GOT A JOB TO INTRO?
if not i'll start rotting at home after exams
unless im having my attachment..which is before & after 2 weeks of holidays
such weird schedule..i rather have attachment first den enjoy my 4 weeks holidays
den it'll be the start of my YEAR 3 sem 2
when the other YR3s are out on attachment already -.-
i wanna start working! den i can continue my bike practs!
& get a bike!!

Chinese Valentine's day tmr...
hmmmmm.....but....
even if it's a Chinese Vday, if it doesnt mean anything to u..
it means nothing to me too..not anymore...
maybe im the only one who see the day as a special day
I'm such an idiot to think of those stupid stuffs!
FUCK U WENDY!! WAKE UP FROM YOUR UNREALISTIC & UNDESIRABLE DREAMS!!!!
shall waste my fucking time at home stoning tmr
though i wanna get out of this house..
but..forget it..COS I'M DUMB!
hmmmm..feeling kinda emo now..
shant say anything in here..
damn fucking emo.....AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
& tat's why i always say, we're SO DIFFERENT.

sorry if my posts are getting more & more vulgar
like it or not, u decide.
this is me, not who u think
im uncouth, ill tempered, bothersome or whatever SHIT!
perhaps u'll rejoice if i'm non-existent.

my mood is as gloomy as the damn sky now
i have the whole flat to myself, to stone.
i just dont understand what causes mood fluctuate
happy.
sad.
happy.
sad.
what the ~!@#^&*

Im 100% sure that i'm not born to study.
even IF i've been consistent with my work,
i just cant get the GOD DAMN THING into my pea brain
YEAH.so i'm just a useless piece of JUNK next to anyone
shall not condemn anyone for my uselessness

26th of Aug, also known as the 7th day of the 7th month in the chinese calender
hmmmm..was supposed to be a special day for chinese
yea.it's the day where the 'nu lang & zhi nu' meet
LOL..it's so called Chinese Valentines' Day.
Anyways.that's not important anymore.

watching 'Likeable Or Not' on Youtube.
Yea.nothing better to do..
just cant stand being at home alone. & NO im not going to sleep!!

IT'S RAINING!!
i woke up so early today, thanks to the cold weather.
And i only slept for 5 hours!!
my cousin stayed overnight, we went T3 for YaKun ytd night!
reached home at 2+, she & yang went crazy playing with the soft toys
& i played PSP till 5am -.-

IT'S SUNDAY!!
Got to start reading up AN 3 today.eh...AN 3 or 4 tmr?
zzz..got to study both anyways..

im just so lazy. I WANT TO SLEEP!!!

anyway.i finally cut my hair(after months of saying)
but i cut my fringe only :P
dun trust the hairdresser to cut short my hair, so cut fringe only
hmmmm..shall cut short after my attachment?

like i said, it's raining heavily now..
shall go back to sleep now!!

EXAMS!! EXAMS!! EXAMS!! EXAMS!! EXAMS!!
GOD DAMN IT!!
4 papers for the next freaking week!!
2 AN papers for mon & tues
1 AN paper on thurs & the last MENTAL paper on friday!!
I'll be so damn DEAD!!
but who carea.i still have the next sem to retake the modules(if i fail the supp)
i so freaking hate next sem.
i NEED a job!!!!

okok..im really off to sleep..again..

something wrong with this com.
VIRUSES!!!
daddy was nagging & nagging, saying tat we keep downloading some useless stuffs.
LOL.& i just keep saying tat im a complete computer idiot, & i dunno how to download stuffs!!

anyways.din have much time to study.
the wake is still ongoing..
& im totally exhausted. or should i say, im just plain lazy to study?

gonna start studying on wed afternoon
my paper's on thurs at 9am!!

my great grandmother departed on 14 Aug at 2333pm
came back not long ago from the wake
strangers! YES! we're TOTAL STRANGERS!!
i seriously dont wanna go dere again
but too bad, had to finish the ritual & stuffs.

I have yet to start my revision yet!
GOD DAMN...my mind are loaded with craps + trash + rubbish!!!
thats what happened if u're not alone...
yes, i've been thinking bout .........something.
sigh..we started at the wrong time....& u're with the wrong person
as time goes by, i'll be hurting u even more....
could we just........

exams starts on thurs.the wake is until wed?
F***!! Seriously no time to study
no classes already..
will be stoning at home = falling aslp on my bed.
was thinking of spending my hours at Expo's Coffee bean
mummy suggested the place, ideal to study cos it's super quite
but..i tink i'll just rot at home..& die of excessive sleep.

when will we meet again?
u always realise something about me, each time i'm with u
but have u realised something?
something tat u dont see in my msges already?
maybe u know, but u din mention..
....i always find it hard to speak up with you around
our expectations are different....
our views are very different....
everything about us are very very different....
i shant deny tat i dont expect us to last..
we wont either..
i just dont understand a single thing about you. nor myself.

AH F***! I......i'm just a !@#$%^&* BITCH!!!
like a piece of SHIT next to you.

class start at 2pm tmr, till 6pm.SIAN!!
meeting fidah at 10am for MaC breakfast, studying after tat.

have been wasting my hours at home.
had another bowl of maccaroni for lunch, headed to Giant
shopped for 2 hours!!
came home, wanting to sleep.but ended up reading newspaper & stuffs..
went tabao food at simei with mummy & daddy..
has been watching tv since i finish eating at 8.wahaha
i have to start studying soon!!
but too bad, im not as clever or consistently hardworking as someone..
hmmmm.........

shall stop stoning at this blogger page..
watch the channel U drama now!!
Dylan is handsome can!!!!

The air is so terrible today!!
I'm normally not sensitive to the air, but not this morning!!
the rain started at 6.30.nobody wake up to close those windows
should make it auto, close by itself when it rains -.-

im super hungry now(since ytd)
waiting for mummy to cook maccaroni ((:

ohoh.meet fidah & ayun to watch fireworks
went crazy with them, esp fidah (crazy idiot)
waited at the bridge since 4 plus?
MASSIVE HUMAN TRAFFIC JAM!!
we sat somewhere in between 2 families,
fidah was complaining bout this women next to.LOL.
what to expect.we took part of their space :P
fidah wanted to buy some crackers but the police din alow us to go out
so we munch on the sweets & sour plum we bought earlier..
it was so cooling that all of us cant stand it.BRRRR..COLD!!!
blah blah blah blah..
after the fireworks, we went to take train
my train(towards pasir ris) not much ple.(surprisingly).HAHAS!

was supposed to meet BC for supper. WAS starving!
but he had to wait for his cousin to slp before he could meet me..
cant find anyone to have supper with me
damn pathetic right? emo....
for that moment i wished he hadnt stay too far away from me..
at least he would have accompanied me, wont he? hmmm...
so i came home, went to bed STARVING!

it's monday, a public holiday!!
what to do today?
zzz.the weather is so nice for me to slp lah!
mummy & daddy was wondering if i've slept.
going back to slp after i eat maccaroni!
& hmmmm..stoning at home the whole day?

FATED TO LOVE YOU showing later at 10pm!! ((:

At 12:34:56 on 7.8.09, i called fidah an idiot!!
LOL.i'm called a moron & shida, spastic!
it was during lect & both of them just woke up from their nap
well, the 'curse' happened. should have called shida an OCD patient
what a nice moment, though only for that sec..


have been stoning with this blogger page on for like dunno how long..
watching 王子看見二公主.stupid drama.but i have nothing to do..
sigh.had been stoning at home since 3?
dont feel like being at home.
din go out with tosh & the rest.so siian!!

sighs.was alright just now until someone called..
maybe..my fault la..
just dunno why i ALWAYS ttm...
hais.i really dont like ple to always assume things
i just get so offended.dont act as if u noe me well!!
i dont understand everything!!!!

kind of pekchek now..but..haiis..
suan le...life still goes on, no matter whatever hardship there is..

maybe...it's really not meant to be..
everything went so wrong in the past..
this will too, i'm sure.i just have no faith in EVERTHING..
it's hard..not to think about it..
hard not to cry over those stuffs..
i dunno how long more can i take all these.
how long more will this last...?
it's really tough.....

ps:this post is so random.& emo-ish.

gonna watch fireworks with fidah on sunday((:
but somehow, the mood isnt right..for now..
hopefully on sun i'll be back to being cheerful again
& i wun think bout someone at the time.

yummy yummy! just finish a bowl of maggi
I"M STILL HUNGRY!! but at least dere's some food to fill my stomach.

FYP's finally over! YEAH!!!
severly lack of sleep
had only 2 hours plus of sleep before i woke up at 5am this morning
waited like ages for either bus 9 or 38
stand all the way from simei to boonlay!!
yea i was late.but luckily nina's on the same train as me
& luckily the bus left sch late & arrive at BL late
blah blah blah..
the event was a success!
ended aroud 4, waited till 5.30 for thw bus.

pathetic sia..damn tired..damn shag..
i wanna slp.but thanks to someone whose fren is here to 'study'
shall watch the drama on channel u at 10 before i sleep((:

class start at 12 tmr! but hmmmm.dont think having tat lect..

multitasking now..
facebook-ing, watching channel u's 命中註定我愛你 & 福氣又安康!!
LOL.命中註定我愛你 is so hilarious!! but it's a nice show.hahas!
換換愛 showing on channel U too!

got to sleep early tonight.waiting for mummy to finish tidying the hamsters & apply 'zambak' for me
ohoh.i FLEW in sch today! Well, i fell down, & knocked my head, & some abrasions -.-
SUPER PAIN!!! Here pain dere pain!!
Yea.i was dumb, & i am dumb!!

got to reach Boon lay at 6.45am.YAWNS!
hope everything goes well tmr.
den i can start studying for exams.
hmmm...guess i will be too lazy to study :P

hmmms.....ttm-ing~!~!~!

i wanna work!!!

no classes tmr!
but going sch for FYP thingy
before tat im going AMK hub first(:

lalala..continue to watch the drama((:

went for NDP preview with fanily ytd
daddy was so kiasu, reach suntec at 1 plus?
walked walked, bought some tidbits, had KFC for lunch
went into the platform dere, waited for super long for the show to start
wasnt tat impressive.the fireworks as well
hmmm..i think the fireworks on the actual day will be better?
promised fidah tat i'll be meeting her le.

sunday is ending in another 5 hours time
woke up at 12 plus.planned to tidy up my part of the room,and start my studying
but was busy with the other chores -.- tired..
& now, im just gonna rot in front of the com & watch the drama 福氣又安康
i guess only my sis have the good fortune to eat shit sleep & do nothing at home
yea.we're the maids, can apply for job at the maid agency le
she's enjoying her life, doing nothing at home now.
the volume of the tv is super loud la.TMD!
Ah im going crazy!!!

headache headache headache!!
FYP will soon be done on wed!
really got to start studying for exams le
just hope tat she wun be around when im studying at home