been years since i've blogged.
i'm into my 7th week of PRCP already i think
but i'm still nowhere near the expected standards
pretty much fed up with life recently
no-talking quarrels/arguements/bickerings with bf
it's really hard for us to be back to normal already..
main problem: lack of understanding & communication.

i'm getting less & less patient when it comes to work
i meant in the ward..
i'm sorry i couldnt control myself, sorry that i hit my patients.
no carer, pitiful, demented...i'm sorry..

am i really fit to be a nurse?
i think not.
i used to think that i'm patient/family-orientated
but little things that happened can make my mood change..
i dunno..just dont deserved to be called STAFF NURSE.

i'm very troubled now!
everything i want is impossible already!
i know i cant leave
but what's the point of me staying? Or leaving?
it'll still be back to ZERO for me..

u'll be going to her bdae celebration tmr right?
i have no say in whatever you do.
have fun...