have i mentioned that i got a gun? a toy gun to be exact.
yes, was playing my nephew's new toy gun,
it's been long since i'v played with that
& his grandmother, who's my aunt said she'll get it for me!
was like a kid when i got it on sunday night :P
I'M HAPPY? YES, I'M HAPPY (:

was slightly late when i met fidah at yishun today(26 oct)
had mac for breakfast, until 12 pm..
walked around Northpoint, until i really decide to cut my hair
so..I CUT MY HAIR SHORT!!
was hesitating to cut, & really really reluctant!!
but the end result, IT'S SHORT!
& fidah claims it's nice!
THANKS DARLING FOR ACCOMPANYING ME CUT MY HAIR(:

trained to Bishan to meet him
walked around J8, & kept walking round & round..
until fidah had to go home..
me & him continue walk around J8..had KFC for dinner..
OMG i'm really going to be so fat!!
he sent me back, loitered awhile before he left to bus home..

hmmmm....kinda ttm-ing a little now..
no idea why...

I NEED A BLOODY JOB NOW!!!

feels kinda weird in my new hairdo..

random-ness..

this blogger page has been up since 2pm?
but ive stoned, watched CHARMED, & this page is still empty
thinking.. thinking.. thinking..
it's a boring sunday..
damn hot boring sunday. DAMN IT!

ttm-ing..AGAIN!
i really dont want all these already.
i dont want them!!
nothing..NOTHING can change a thing!
i'm like her right? As stubborn as her.

meeting fidah at yishun tomorrow..

what a saturday, damn boring day!
woke up at 7.30am, reached ICA building with daddy at 8.30am
collected our passport within ten minutes
dad was rushing to leave the place & mummy kept grumbling that he din get the form to do terry's passport..
had our breakfast at aljunied

reached home at 12 plus?
watching some kiddy program & headed to my bed
& slept till 6.30!!

so i've been watching charmed till now
yea it's a great show & im so addicted to it!
3 of them are so CUTE!!

HEY! i got to find a GOD DAMN BLOODY JOB!!
an hour lect each for next thurs & fri ONLY!
i have to work! & earn my bloody money..
so at least baby wun waste his money on me that much..

ttm-ing now..& forever..
GOD DAMN IT!!
WHY?!?!?!
FUCKING HELL!!
sorry that all those vulgarities came out, more are rushing out but...
AH, FUCK!!
Why did i view her profile & all that stuffs?
i just cant forget everything bout her, bout both of u.
i guess u find us quite similar right?
both of us, scorpios?
i know im not as pretty as her or wadever SHIT!
just a simply question, why u like ______?
it has got to do with her right?
just FUCKING HELL confess if..
forget it..
OH FUCK HELL, SHIT!!
Why cant i just go away?

home alone this evening..
mummy driving daddy to his mj session, along with terry.
both sisters are out,
one hanging out with boyfriend,
the other might be studying for her Os
see, no one's around when i need them.
who the fucking hell bothers about me, right?

End of week 1 of sem 2
been to two early-in-the-morning-at-eight-and-nine-am boring lectures
a LARGE group of us in some tutorial room,
with me & Fidah sitting all the way behind,
where Mr Clemaus is supposed to be teaching sociology,
yet it sounds like we attended some religious class..
which is, utterly BORING TO THE MAX!
everyone concluded that he's a ______, judging from the way he spoke & stuffs..
hopefully next week's lecture wouldnt be as boring.

collecting my renewed passport at ICA building tmr
waking up damn early in the morning..

PHONE'S GONNA BE ON SILENT(WITHOUT VIBRATION TOO) ON SAT & SUN
& I WILL 'HIDE' MY PHONE SOMEWHERE WHERE I WONT REMEMBER
& I WONT BOTHER TO CHECK IT EVEN IF I REMEMBER!

or should i...

baby it's not that i dont know that both of us need each other
i know we do, really do
but the problem is..it will always always come out..

He left my place @ 1806 today
we had some stuffs to talk through but yet i was a MUTE!
it was partially bcos of tat, but mainly becos...
i just dont understand what you want.
Baby, i dont know how to be your girlfriend.
& i wont be Mrs Choo, i know.

i thought through lots for the past few days
i'm really trying as much as i could to..
i guess u might not understand my reason for those actions & thinking..
i dont wish for anything to happen to you, or us
till the day that everything will change..
im just waiting for that day to arrive..
even if that means i have to wait for even longer..
just not to see you getting hurt by me..

i guess by that time, you wont even know the wendy you know now
not when everything has changed.

tiring day today..
was woken up by fidah to get our books in sch
rushed down, was kinda pissed abit (sorry for anything fidah)
din manage to get our books but we kinda preordered it
acced him for lunch..
went to tpy with him, i stayed in the library while he had his hair cut
left the library at bout 5pm, had mutton soup before taking bus back
changed to train at tamp to changi airport to meet family for sakae
din really eat much, i guess my share only add up to less than $8!

bought my $10 slippers at 201, returned daddy that 10 bucks
damn it im really so poor like FUCK!
I REALLY NEED A BLOODY FREAKING JOB!!! TMD~!@#$%^&*()
i dont want ple to see me as some freaks who act kelian to use her bf/family's money
damn it IM NOT!! & I DONT WANT TO!!
really made me feel damn pathetic when they say i use my bf's money or wadever
baby u know i really feel bad using your money..
so no matter what, DONT spend ur money on me unnessarily again
sigh..JOB!! COME TO ME!! LOL!!!!

& baby, just get me ONE simple & cheap birthday present will do
& we shall have a simple dinner at my place? i cook for u & my family!!

alrights.shall rest early tonight
lesson starts at 8am & i will not be late!

im unable to watch CHARMED season 2,
so im watching season 3 on youtube now

19 october
had breakfast with mummy at hougang before she drive me to sch
'class' started at 0915, so we were separated into 3 different groups
yes, me & fidah are separated
she had her breakfast at mac, before we head to fareast to get her watch
walked around until 2, had kfc..
went city hall(some aldephi buildin or wadever) for a job interview
& fidah got it, and i dont - LOL
next stop, raffles city for another job interview
they say they would call those selected..
we went back fareast, walked around, & fidah tried to ask jobs for me

trained back, we parted at tpy
he came to fetch me at the mrt station
went watch he & his frens play snooker
was supposed to meet ade & the rest
but ernest couldnt make it & ade last min said she cant too

it's weird to hang out with them
not tat i dont want to, but..maybe i just shouldnt
den u'll be free to do whatever u love..
been thinking through what ur fren says..
i've not tried to understand anything bout u well enough
honestly, i dont know what you're thinking
till now..i'm still lost..
how long more will i be your baby?

alright so today(20 october)
woke up after barely 4 hours of sleep
reach the alphedi building at 8.45
waited for her till 9.30 before she leave for her designated workplace
asked directions from the mrt's control station
ages since i've been to buona vista, dunno for wadever reasons
so we trained dere, bused to HOLLAND VILLAGE
it's so near where she live lah!!
walked around before she went to work
so i left, walking aimlessly to find the bloody bus stop
turns out tat i was at the wrong bus stop but who cares
took some unknown bus to commonwealth station & trained home
& fidah darling, i almost fainted!
thanks to this guy who gave up his seat when he saw me almost falling over
like i was some kind of an old lady
got home, slept till 5 plus when i thought i've slept for several days

continue to watch CHARMED
mind's full of useless thoughts
gonna stoned at home tmr, bet i'll be on my bed the whole day

stoned infront of the com since 1pm
been hooked onto CHARMED, yea watching it on youtube
facebook-ed, youtube-ed, msn-ed, bloghopped
reading elsa's blog, she's blessed to have an excellent bf

briefing at 9am in sch,
meeting fidah at 8.45 at yck mrt station
finding job after tat,
acc-ing fidah to far eat to get her watch.
will tat take whole day?
oh.i forgot im meeting my sec sch friends at pasir ris in the evening?

waiting for my dinner to come..

school officially starts tomorrow, but im not having any lessons
only some briefing with the lecturer.whatever for?!
will be hanging out with fidah after buying our lecture notes
going for job hunting & probably an hour of pool?
meeting ade & the rest tmr evening, to celebrate alysha's birthday?

i'm only going to have lessons on thurs..
so i have plenty of time to stone at home,
update my blog more frequently
& change my blogskin!!
i wanna blog more bout us.LOL!!
erm..hmmm..things are getting better for us,
so hope it gets better!
no more big quarrels, miscommunications & stuffs..

JOB JOB JOB!!
i'm dying to work, work & work!
so many things i want to buy!
shoulder bag & backpack are top on my list!
slippers next,
clothes,
new spectacles,
new haircut + new hair colour,
DS Lite?,
laptop(cos sis got 1 from her bf, i jealous.LOL),
&&& continue my bike licence!

dream only la..hahas
but still..got to study this sem, A for both modules?
dream on wendy!!

i shall continue watching CHARMED(:

been trying to changing my blogskin
BUT!!
im such a dumb dumb, so as u can see, i've not changed anything yet!

Spent my day with piggy ytd..
waited for him to reach my place, bused to Ehub for our movie
blame it on my dumbness or my poor command of english,
Pandorum would be a more interesting show if i had followed it closely..
had mac before heading to T1 to meet girl + ray + dylan..
walked around for awhile, dinner at foodcourt with piggy when they left
slacked around with piggy until it was to late for him to stay..

piggy's coming over tmr, probably after 1pm
he'll be helping me tidy my part of the room..

Things aint going on well between me & baby.
should i continue to address him as baby?

I appreciate his effort to send me to work,
& also fetch me from work..
& all those things he did for me..
It's me baby..
I'm the one who always made u sad
My ttm-ness, always caused u to worry too much..
Perhaps we really dont....
letting each other go would be a better option ba..
in the end, we wil have to leave each other anyway..
honestly speaking..i seriously cant stand your over-worrying..
though i know that's because you really care alot
but each time when u called & start telling me those things..
i really wished i was deaf..
i dunno why i lesser & lesser patience when i talk to u..
is it becos i know we'll be ending son?
AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
Freaky headache.DAMN!
i'm so gonna get KILLED by fidah..
been talking nonsense to her..
"u going to marry him or his parents?"
"is tat more important or a happy marriage life more important?"
hmmmm...i dont think i can wait for him for 6 years?
AH!! dont wish to think anymore now..