it sucks not being able to sleep well.
had a hard time to fall asleep last night, woken up few times & this morning some irritating alarm keep buzzing & buzzing!!
how can someone be as PIG as her?!
YAWN!!
hais.lots of things i just dunno how to say....
got to go work soon, meeting mum's friend for lunch first (:

back to my nest not long ago.
been sticking with him the whole afternoon
wasnt a pleasant couple-ly time tgt though.
he came to fetch me to The Cathay to watch [Grown Ups] - a show i find it stupid.
all the way throughout the journey to The Cathay he didnt utter a single word.
after the show went walk around town, esp taka.
he ordered snow skin mooncake for his godma.
wanted to pay for it but..i think i should settle my stuffs first..
went in malaysia at 11plus..
ate LokLok..like super nice!!
oh ya..he bought drink for us( green tea for me)
im not going to drink green tea again cos his ex also love green tea
yeah it's childish but still...
we had some arguements again...
so on the way back he was totally pissed, kept quiet & ignored me all the way!
sigh..
only when we're outside my house, only then he said everything that he is unhappy about...
Suddenly i feel super bad towards him..
hmmm..we're fine now (:
probably meeting him in the evening tmr..
hope he's home now.
sorry that he always have to drive home alone in the middle of the night.

i wont be writing anything on my fb wall anymore
using fb mainly for games
& yes, it's bcos of him.
i cant tell him anything & he says i rather write my stuffs on fb than to tell him!

it's his DO today
he wants to go malaysia & till now im waiting for him!
but his sis using the car..hais
though im still having doubt..
but should i cab down to his place now?

finally the burden on my left hand fourth finger is off!
been ttm again..
i took all the cards+book from him, given by his ex..
& yea i been reading that darned book!
every single details written in that book..
&..he's not telling me the truth..
till now..everything he has done is same as *him.

i find myself unable to tell him anything now.
how i feel bout him, bout our relationship..
in fact, i can tell no one.

he's being mad at me for constantly refusing to tell him anything,
instead i post my feelings out on FB & apparently he dislike me doing it.
now everything i do, even the thought of u..i will think bout her..
i dont wan to do the same thing she did for u...

oh fucking god!
FML!! Cant u let me remind single for the rest of my cursed life?!

21 days.
we've been all over singapore,
talked about everything,
everything.
But have we really talked bout everything?
Or have u been really truthful bout everything?

I dont want the world, I just want you.

Desperate need of everything!

thoughts constantly flow through my mind
why would u love me so suddenly.
why would u love me so much..
how long would that sudden love last..

Poh says:
*you cannot judge now, becoz you just get to know him
*you are unsure whether is he truthful as his only get to know you and asked you to be his gf
*he might do this to other girl as well
*so the sense of unsecurity is quite strong now
*correct?!
*lol

hmmm...he got that spot on! damn!

*what i mean is truth self
*is the personality and character really like this
*i mean at the start of the r/s, everything will be sweet
*but if he isnt serious, then when time passes, you will know de

i really wonder how long it will last..

i know u really did alot for us..
but i cant help but ttm every single second..

been tgt for 2 weeks(:
though we meet almost everyday
laogong i really still cant believe your love..

尧 says:
*i din hide u from my parents
*i din hide u in my closet
*i juz intro u to my parents
*to my godma
*to my frens lo
*i where got scare of letting dem know your existance like tt Marcus

Laogong..
i always use to say.. everything u said or did is the same as him
but now..
your words, your actions...made me speechless..
though i cant help but ttm..

2 weeks
we did eveything tgt
u promised me everything
we have our rings
we are already laogong & laopo.
i want us to last.
Time will tell.
i want to tell you i love you.

things isnt going smooth
or maybe..it's just as expected?
cant expect much from guys ya?
they are just so alike!

now that attachments are over, i'm gonna get a job real soon
but which kind i'm not sure.
i need the god damn money!
to pay back whatever i owe him
yeah.thanks to me, his car is down & worse now!

i wanna cook some pies!
but i wanna laze around some time first.. :P

Finally finish my PRCP,
finally no more being a student.
have to wait til the school settles our transcript & stuffs
meanwhile i just have to get a part time job.
perharps relief teacher in my mum's sch? LOL
or am i going to slack all the way?
i wanna go back to f&b! but for only 2 to 3 months?
hmmm...

no time to change new blogskins or all the contents.
will find time to do it asap.

Barely a week into our relationshp,
yet it seems like we've been tgt for months.
Meeting almost everyday..
mj-ing at your friend's place..
we need to understand each other more definately
otherwise u would say i cheat u.
perhaps like u said, we just started our honeymoon...

Our first quarrel,over a small matter
waited for your msg but u fell asleep..
ya i know u are tired..
but still..who wouldnt get pissed?

there are things that i dont like.
but what to do? No point saying.
You have your life, I have mine.

I keep having this thinking..
that i'll play along if u want me to.
It's really hard to trust guys' words again.

i dont want things to repeat itself again.
i'm just afraid dear.

start of a new life
i dont know how my life will be.
self-degrading or th opposite.

I'm attached now.
To Ng Yao.
I'm trying to start anew.
Happiness or pain.
Just hope everything will be different.
Everything from you is truthful.

Yao, u will be my only love.