what makes someone have mental illneses?
are their brain functioning normally, or not?
do they know that there are people caring for them?
what would you think if you see them outside, screaming, talking to themselves?
they must be out of their mind right?
i think they are cute & clever.
cute when they look so innocent & playful
clever cos they can cheat other people.
i mean people wont know how they are really feeling at that point of time.
i would like to be crazy one day.
this way i dont have to always escape from reality?
'i die already' - my patient says
do they really think that that they are dead?
or they really want so much to be dead, so they 'lied' to themselves?

basically, it's really challenging to communicate with them
yet there's this kind of sweet feeling i have whenever i see them smile

he came, wanting to acc me home
i...din talk to him much..
was walking with my friend,
ignoring him..
SORRY!! Shouldnt have left you alone.
you had to leave earlier, cos you din want to stay for dinner
haiis..i know you feel paiseh to stay..
i wont ever ask you to stay for dinner ever again.
honestly i feel so weird..
we're totally mismatched
yet i expect alot from you, from this relationship..
i'm just your girlfriend..
but i've not done much as a girlfriend..
so i cant expect much..
you have your own considerations & all..
so i guess..it's really time i put those dreams behind?

morning shift at 7am tmr..
my eyes are freaking pain, BURNING! TEARING!!~!@#$%^&*()
it's so bored at IMH
talking & talking & talking to the patients..
I WANT TO DO SKILLS!!!
too bad la..stupid posting..
luckily it's ONLY 2 weeks?!

SLEEP! SLEEP!! SLEEP!!!
dont you dare say i'm a fucking lazy pig!
i need EXTRA SLEEP, if not i'll really DIE!!!