the flu bug is here!
ED is real cold!! FREEZING COLD!!
ED=Emergency Department, only seen few cases of collapsed patients.
9 of us, being allocated our stations
& so sway tat each time i'm stationed at Nurse's Station or Resuscitation room either the CIs/lecturer wants to have a word with us or that it's too early that there are only minor cases.
in resuscitation room i only encountered 2 cases of near collapse case, but both i din have the chance to perform CPR
i guess i would have made things worse if i had been involved.
Did lots of ECGs @ Nurse's Station.
no chance for dressings, T&S, catheterisation & other procedures.
super sway that the NYP lecturer is the same shift with me throughout the week!
& she's always picking on me!
everything i do, she wants to know, wants to intervene.
glad tat today is the last day in ED!
however, it's a place where lots of critical thinking has to be displayed
the ever-new cases amaze me, the pace is pretty acceptable
it's just the thinking process part!
i can be super slow in reacting to the last word spoken to me!
RESUSCITATION ROOM!!
pretty good place to work in(:

Oh..was a little disappointed with myself last night(wednesday)
went for revision & pract 5..
thought i would pass this time round.
but...I FAILED!! @ immediate failure & 10 demerit points):
& there's this malay girl..she did it for the first time & PASSED!!!
~!@#$%^&*()(*&^^^%$R#W@!~
*seriously thinking whether to give up the pract or not*

super + ultra + crazily TIRED!
backaching, ankle fucking pain(foot stucked when i fell from bike), brain temporarily on standby mode, eyes closing anything...
i've yet to do complete my case study!!
& i have my individual dunno what topic to find!
SBARR & T&S! HOW IN THE WORLD CAN I START THE PRESENTATION ON T&S?!?!
drawing stars on the paper which i wrote my research on...
URGHX!
nothing left to keep me going..
no more support from friends...
it's so mentally torturing, physically strained during attachments
& my 2 other jobs...
can i just give everything up?
can i just live the simple life that i want?

those thinkings...just so impossible...

keep going...until u hold it no more..

let go of your tears..dont hold it back...

let your words out...open your mouth...

dont be afraid to say how you feel...

you've lost everthing...there's nothing more for you to lose...

but you know you cant...

just cry, wendy....