i shouldnt start this post at all..
but i really wanted a place so write it down...

i'm such a bastard, i know..
but i really cant help it..
& i cant help it if i were to imagine lots of useless stuffs..
i wonder if he has been telling me the truth all these while..
that he really hates rebel
that he is really doing his night shifts...
or is he saying tat he hate tat place so that i wont go there?
or using work as an excuss to go have some real fun...
what is it that u wan from me?
true love? or someone who can satisfy your needs?
DAMN IT! I'M NOT A PROSTITUTE!
why cant you just let me go,
& find yourself a girlfriend who can satisfy ALL YOUR NEEDS!!!
whay cant you just let me go,
why cling on to this relationship when we're going nowhere?
why cant you just let me go,
let me have the happiness that i want.

you wan to club,
you go ahead.
i know you cant resist your friends.
you want someone to satisfy your needs,
i wont be the one ANYMORE.
please go find someone else.
be a player if you must,
at least you can get what you want.
you dont long for a serious relationship anyway.

if 3 years is too long to end this relationship
why not end it now.
hate me if you must,
i dont want you to hate me if anything happens in future.
we dont belong to each other in the first place.