intended to blog this early morning..
but bcos someone off the wireless so din manage to post it.

emoing until 7AM before i fell asleep.
he lent me his laptop
found some undesirable things in it..
had some arguements with him...
was on the phone with him early on..
i find that i really cant go on like this anymore.
why cant we just be like normal couple?
i cannot be together with someone who is extremely cunning..
i really dont wan to keep guessing what else would i encouter when i'm with you.
the photos...everything..
i'm really trying hard to convince myself that we're happy together
trying my best to forget everything.
but i really dunno how long more i can take this.
how long more do i have to take to make myself feel better.

lots running through my mind
suppressing all feelings can be so hard..

2 more days of stoning
work on sat & sun..
attachment starts next monday
just hope everything would be alright
numb myself from all those shit!