should i?
i meant giving up that bloody bike pract.
but i've been at it for so long..
wasted so much money on it..
like can bear to give up..

see! this is how stubborn i can get.
super stubborn!
yes i can be very stubborn.
refusing to give up on lots of stuffs.
probably that excludes studying.
anyways should i?
i had a new admission. RTA.
pt had femur fracture.
it was so bad that the slightest movement is excruciating!!
his relatives discourages me from taking, another pt as well..
telling how jialat it is nowadays to ride a bike
anyway my pt wasnt speeding. some damn car jump bang into him.
hmmm..seeing his state..i'm really considering whether to drop it or not.
his parents was so hurt as well..
but..but..but..but..but..
give me some time to think about it..

that i can be undecisive..
but wad about us?
going 11 months soon.
our relationship has been so bored..
honestly, i cant feel the love anymore.
why cant i be less stubborn in a relationship.
it's really time to let go.
& please stop telling me u cant.
u dont love me anymore.
i'm just too bored for you.
& i feel like i'm...trying to...
AH! NEVERMIND!
i feel so dumb again & again
waiting for u to finish work
hoping u would call.
sigh.
things arent the same anymore
i dont wan to hold on to you anymore.
the life i want is not the life you want.
it's not what you can give me too
be it now, or 5 years later.
one more time, i swear i'll leave.

different team.
super lazy SN & EN.damn.
everthing ask me do.
lets not mention mimi cos she's having her PRCP.
damn sway that i'm the only student in the team.
just now when i was about to leave, i told both of them that this particuar pt has a plug on his hand for 5 days!
yet they do nothing about it, just say change tmr!
like WTF?!
u din even check his plug site, don notice it when u gave IV antibiotics
& now? fucking lazy.
wan pt to have infection izzit? or worse, phlebitis?!
fucking headache again.damn
already ate 6 panadols in the ward
maybe tmr i try get tramadol? :p
sobs..wad happen to my pea brain?!
sigh.have to sleep now
din noice it was 3 plus already
gonna be a zombie in the ward~!~!