been busy with attachments, no time to blog!
had a rather long weekend after my morning shift on thurs.
met his colleages for dinner - steamboat at Bugis.
Super uncomfortable just sitting there eating..
no common topic...
sent me home after dinner
disappointed...
wasted my friday stoning at home
went out only at night, for dinner with family.
walked around Parkway Parade for awhile..
thought of buying watch...
was jioed to club..but..haiis..
whole night didnt get to sleep
was webcamming with WS until 5 plus am.
bought mac home for yang, sis & me
met WS at simei at close to 4pm, trained down to ciy hall.
walked around Suntec, did my stuffs, went looking for Dylan's present..
got to go down Suntec again to collect stuffs.
walked for so long but din managed to buy anything for Dylan):
but i bought a polo for daddy(:
Thanks WS for acc-ing me walk around ((:
Wendy was back.
like finally let free, once again..
if i could go back to that time, i want to go!

Sigh.it's just tomorrow..
i know i'm going to be disappointed again.
For sure....
i've waited a year for it.
i know i will get nothing..
just a cheap, simple one..NO! i will get none!
i'm prepared to be disappointed, but...it still will hurt ALOT!
your stubborn-ness will really kill me one day.
i swear i'll go mad because of you!
i dont belong to your world.
money, power, whatever shit, I DONT BELONG THERE!
I DONT CARE ABOUT THOSE LIFE!
i care about my own life.
being with you is not the life i want anymore.
Forgive me, your not understanding girlfriend.

tomorrow is also the day which marks my first day taking on cases!
i really hope i'll do well.
pardon me for making small mistakes,
pardon my forgetfullness,
pardon communication skills,
pardon my clinical knowledge & reasoning &
pardon my medications.
i am really trying hard to improve all these.
i really want to do my best to be an awesome nurse.
i want to do my part for other people's love ones.
please pray that i wont screw up my entire posting.
i cant imagine what will happen if i fail my PRCP.
next DO on is this coming wed.
meeting fidah(: will everything be alright?

Forgive me, till now i still cant stop TTM.
i really hate it when i am prepared for disappointments yet i am so badly affected.