did something most stupid today
or rather yesterday?
i bought mother day's cards
to mummy & her friends, and his mum.
i'm completely out of my mind to do that - a card for his mum?!
why would i bother when he doesnt?
it's expensive can?!?! for his mum's only!
was cracking my pea brain thinking what to write in the card.
wrote it after several hours, but dont think it was a nice one.
friends who are puzzled as to why i kept staring st the card, was asking why was i taking so long to write a card to my mother.
in the end they know it's not for my mum, but his.
biggest joke of the universe!
hahas..almost a year tgt yet i'm writing to someone whom i've not met!
whatever. i shall close my ears to those remarks.
hajar posted it for me cos i was hesitant to drop it into the mailbox.

had a some break from work ytd (tuesday)
played captain's ball against ward 45 for about 30 mins
2 SNs, Mimi, Hajar & I.
sisters was watching & cheering for us.LOL
we lost but it was fun (:
probably in future i could play for 45 :p
sisters treated us to drinks, rested for 15 mins in the canteen.
anw.though it's only 30 mins, my toe had huge blister!
skin already peeling & it was fucking pain when i put melolin.LOL
we wore the staff's scrub suit so when we re-enter ward
the ITEs plus the staffs said we really look like SNs!!
only for that night.
Hajar & I was busy taking pix :p

last day in ward.
slacked most of my time in the ward.
yes i know my PRCP ward already - WARD 45!!
geron ward,full of humans passing away! OMG!!
worse still, i'm alone with HER!!
face changes IMMEDIATELY when CI told us.WTF!!
had a short talk with Karen. about my posting to 45
so obvious tat i'm super unhappy can?!
didnt want to tell her bout HER, so just sad bout the passing away & stufs.
I DO FEEL!!
it's really depressing seeing patients falling into never-awake sleep
it's even depressing when there's no one to talk these feelings to.
given that i'm a emotional human,
i cant help by cry the moment Karen start to talk about those never-awake patients.
i'm gonna be in 45 with a super duper heavy heart!
WARD45!! Hope i'll survive!

HSE later on at tampines polyclinic.
gonna be a boring place.
rehab, entertain etc
why do we have to have HSE posting?

yihan is not free to watch movie with me
i wanna watch!
but no interesting shows.
BORING!

planning our days next week with Hajar.
probably going NYP to pay her fees - dunno when.
watch movie, gonna apply for job, hmmm...JB?!
i'm meeting her on wed!! LOL
but got to stay home, update my clinical knowledge.

waiting for someone to text me upon reaching home.
guess i'm no longer important.
can i just leave?