i've been getting more & more irritable recentlu
due to PMS? probably..
raised my voise to one elderly in the afternoon
he insisted on getting down when he cant walk unassisted!
shouted at him when he suddenly turned aggressive.
luckily he will be transferring out by the time i start shift on thurs

doing junior(ENs)'s work this 3 weeks
even though it's EN's work, it's freaking tiring!
bathing, changing, feeding, dressing, parameters& charting all!!!
salute them!
8 more days of being a junior!

waited for him to finish work again
his messages, his calls...
talked less than 5 mins, cant wait to put it down.
just dont call if you're really that tired!
& yes, no idea why this few days, weeks i talk to him i will feel so F up
tmr my off, he working morning. but until 7pm. is it really a must to do OT?
you're only there for attachment lor!
sunday u off, but i working at hush.
even if im not working, dont think we can meet in the morning/afternoon also right?
if im not working, bet i'll grumble again..
cos u didnt even think of planning to let me meet your mum!
i'm such a disgrace to you right?!
sigh.i want to stop all these stupid things that i'm doing for us.
xin hui yi leng...
ever wonder how sour your heart can get?
or how can one sudddenly feel pressure over the heart, cant breath in?
i just cant do anything to help that.

You dont belong to me, & I dont belong to you.
As much as i want to belong to you...I cant..cos you dont allow.
NOTHING to show that we belong together.
That NOTHING i will not wait any longer..
just waiting for you to let go.
i cant let go if you dont.
why cant you just let me leave?

Fetching him from work tmr.or later. At 7.30PM
where to go? what to do?
life's so boring with a bf like this.
why cant he just decided everything like a normal guy would?
bet he'll ask me where to have dinner tmr.
& obviously i would choose somewhere cheap, like fastfood.
& window shopping after dinner!
i just hate to walk, do you even know that?
i hate to walk around aimlessly, especially when my legs are in pain.
Bet you dont even know, wouldnt even care.
Guy just like to do certain things their way.

prediction for tonight: freaking bad mood!